"Born To Be Alone" (a poem I wrote recently)

Born To Be Alone

Born into this world,
All alone,
Tears streaming down my face,
Knowing no one,

Illness isolates me,
Abuse holds me in tatters,
Shyness makes it all the more difficult,
Alone I feel at home, at church, in class,

Fearful of talking to women,
Fearful of rejection,
Fearful of opening up to others,
Alone I am in the end,

When I awake in the morning,
Go to sleep at night,
I hear the crickets chirp,
Not another soul in sight,

Alone as I walk the street,
Alone at a bar,
Alone when out to eat,
Alone in my car,

Working at the computer,
Not a sound to be heard,
Hearing the wind gusts in the distance,
Hearing my own heart beat,

I sit in silence,
An all too familiar feeling,
Giving up on love,
Yet wishing another was with me,

An adult in this world,
All alone,
Tears streaming down my face,
Knowing no one,

One failed attempt after another,
The pessimism mounts,
Born to be alone,
As I cry in the night.