"It's Not You; It's Me" (a poem I wrote recently)

It’s Not You; It’s Me

One failure after another,
Similar trends are noticed,
In the women I fall for,
In how the relationships go,

Bad luck is one possibility,
But why so consistent?
Bad taste is another,
But that’s not the constant,

I’m the constant,
The common denominator,
The only reasonable solution,
The inevitable perpetrator,

I give generously,
Receive minimal in return,
Yet I put forth every last effort,
Trying to make things work,

I open myself up,
Make myself vulnerable,
Hoping for reciprocation,
But silence is what I get in return,

A stabbing pain in my chest I feel,
As she walks away without a hitch,
Thinking she felt the same,
Blinded by my innermost thoughts and feelings,

How I want to blame them all,
But it’s not them; it’s me,
I’m the guilty; I’m at fault,
I only need to glance in the mirror to see,

As my head hits the pillow,
Anger and sadness fill my being,
Knowing I’m the one to blame,
Only wanting for another to love me.