The Kind-Hearted Smart Aleck

I don't typically post about this kind of thing, but thought it may aid at least one person out there who may be in a relationship and uncertain if he/she wants things to continue. Due to an awful relationship from what seems like my distant past, the moving transition from Nebraska to Ohio that took place 4+ years ago, and a mysterious two-year illness I battled, it took an extremely long time for me to date again or even get interested in it. After I began feeling well again in early 2011, I suddenly felt a new-found sense of joy, aspiration, hope, and appreciation I hadn't felt before. I felt a drastic change in myself following my healing from the ailment. I can only imagine what others saw. Prior to my recovering from the illness, I had always been extremely shy and insecure around women I liked. I feared rejection if I were to ask them out. I feared making things awkward if they said no, and wondering if we'd be able to maintain a friendship. I feared getting my f...

 I wrote this one last night as well... "Room Temperature" Walking along the desert, I feel the blazing heat, As a smile comes across my face, In the knees I feel weak, The sun brightens the sky, The sky crystal clear, Not a cloud in sight, Not a worry or fear, A sudden change in scenery, As I freeze in the bitter cold, Gusty winds making it difficult to see, Unable to know where to go, I search for signs, To find out where I am, I cry and yell, Not knowing what just happened, Constant changes in scenery, Lost as I walk about them, Wishing her treatment was at room temperature, As I fall from exhaustion with the hot and cold treatment.