"The Chamber of My Heart" (a poem I wrote recently)

The Chamber of My Heart

In the dark of the night,
A pitch black sky,
Lightning in the distance,
Something not feeling right,

The sky as dark as your soul,
Lies told aplenty,
Feeling a sense of loss,
As the truth comes forward,

Locking my emotions in a cell,
Throwing away the key myself,
Not allowing a single person in,
Not wanting to experience such pain again,

Surrounded by bars,
I sit in the corner,
Looking straight down,
Numbing myself in the process,

I finally break free,
Before being struck by illness,
Unable to walk,
Feeling entrapped once again,

Told it could be permanent,
That I may lose my legs,
With a sound of pessimism,
Terrifying images then portrayed,

Imprisoned once again,
Numb from an unknown cause,
Praying for an answer,
Praying for my life back,

I awaken one morning,
Rise with a sense of hope,
No longer feeling helpless,
The sentence finally over,

For years my heart resided in a chamber,
Fearful of letting it out,
Until the night I met you,
Unable to encage it anymore,

Sparks fly upon meeting,
Chemistry is shared,
A mutual interest and attraction,
Having not felt this in years,

With smiles on our faces,
My heart’s bestowed unto you,
With a look of immediate discomfort,
An awkwardness fills the room,

Without muttering a sound,
You walk far away,
Without accepting my heart,
Nor even acknowledging it,

An intense pain grows,
One not experienced in years,
Wishing I was numb again,
With my heart locked in a chamber.