"One Night" (a poem I wrote recently)

One Night

When I awaken,
I look next to me,
Uncertain of who you are,
I begin to shudder,

The surrounding room unrecognizable,
Not cognizant of how I arrived,
My memory lacking all the details,
Not fully knowing what happened last night,

Worries run rampant,
As I try to sneak out,
Hoping I used protection,
Yet feeling much doubt,

Out the door I walk,
Hopeful it’s nothing but a thing of the past,
Praying you don’t call,
That I never bump into you again,

In my car I travel,
Uncertain of where I am,
Receiving constant flashbacks,
Promising myself it’ll never happen again,

Right as I return home,
I hop into the shower,
Trying to cleanse myself of filth,
Seemingly unable to scrub hard enough,

I hit the bars the following night,
Hungover yet again,
Uncertain of who is next to me,
Uncertain of who I am.